Situational Awareness

Our pastor, Bruce, used this term a couple weeks ago during his sermon.  He talked about the flight where the pilots claimed to be in a heated discussion and lost "situational awareness", causing them to fly past their destination by like 600 miles.  I think I lose situational awareness a lot in my faith.  I get so distracted by everything (read: facebook and worthless time spent on the internet) and don't have the discipline to spend time in prayer and devotion to God.  Sadly, a lot of times, I view activities that would strengthen my faith as I view exercise and eating right:  good for me, make me overall a stronger and better person, but I just don't do it.  Then I feel stuck in a cycle of not putting in the effort and feeling crappy because I don't.

While I need to start earlier, I will say that Lent tends to be a time when I make some changes.  I just need to pray and keep the momentum going throughout the rest of the year.  This year, I'm determined to give up facebook/social networking for Lent.  Hopefully this will help me use my time more wisely, preferably to read Scripture, prayer journal, and catch up on my Beth Moore bible study that I'm "doing" with my mom's bible study group.  This is going to be a tough sacrifice, but that's the whole point, right?

Discipline and distraction go hand in hand, I guess.  I am a huge fan of gymnastics, and the main reason is that I really admire the amount of discipline those athletes (and other elite athletes as well) have, as well as mental discipline.  When I get distracted by other things, I get lazy and lack discipline.  A frustrating cycle, but I guess awareness is a large part of the battle.

On another note, I started work with a home health agency on Saturday.  I like it so far.  The hardest part is using a PDA/cell phone device to do all the documentation, but I already feel more confident for next week.  Do I really like working part of (most of, this week) my Saturday?  Not really, but it's helpful for us to have the extra money, and I get out of the house for awhile.  And I gain OT experience, which I need since I've barely worked the past year, due to being pregnant and having Aaron.  I have my other part-time position with UNM, which is around 1/2-1 hr. each weekday after Joel gets home.  Honestly, I feel spread pretty thin and like I don't have much, if any, time for myself.  The UNM position will likely end in May, so I just have to hold out a few more months.  Learning how to balance being a mom, wife, and OT is so difficult.  I certainly don't have it down, and I'm always exhausted, so I just keep praying that God will guide me, and I'll figure it out.  Speaking of which, it's almost 8pm.  I better go pump, and get myself to bed.  Who knows what the night will bring--- certainly a couple of night wakings from my little guy.... that's a whole other post for another day.