TGIF!

I am thankful it's Friday!  This has been a hard week.  Most of them over the past few months have resembled roller-coaster rides.  For the record, I'm not a fan of roller coasters.  I would prefer to float calmly down a serene stream.  But that is not my life right now!

Yesterday I went to the breastfeeding support group at Pres.  Partly because I've been battling a milk blister and was hoping for some advice, but mostly just to get out and be around other moms.  I've been a couple times, but when Aaron was just a newborn.  At yesterday's group, all the babies are getting so big!  Lots of crawlers, and it made me realize that I need to get out more and be more involved with a couple mom's groups of which I am a part.  Aaron was interested in, but also very overwhelmed by, all the babies there.  He was the youngest of the bigger ones and is just now sitting up (but still tipsy-turvy).  I want him to be sociable and happy and be exposed to other little ones out there.  

Hopefully getting out more often will help clear the fog I've been in.  I went for a run the other afternoon after a pretty rough (read: hellish) day and the run was just as lousy as the whole day.  I was crying during most of it, which made me feel even MORE out of shape and I think I got more depressed realizing how out of shape I was.  Just one more thing that I have been failing at and feeling guilty about.  By the way, as an aside, I am not worrying about being grammatically correct in this blog, so deal with it.  :)  Back to running and rambling.  At least I went out and did the run.  And looking back after a couple days, it's motivating me to go out again today.  But with some decent music on my iPod.  And minus the crying.

Also going to go look at some townhomes today with my little A.  I wish I could be more satisfied with where I'm at.  I know a house is just a roof over my head, and it's our family that makes it a home.  But it's also harder to be satisfied with that when I'm home all day.  Every day.  Trying to entertain a baby and two pesky pups.  And keep my sanity.  I like to think that if we were back up in the Heights, I could spend more time with friends up there, make it to my mom's bible study more easily, hang out with my dad.  Who knows?  We'll see.  Joel and I have to find a happy medium with where we're at financially and not go for broke just for our living space.  We want to be able to travel, visit his family (hopefully take an actual vacation as well, somewhere that we've never been- hint, hint, honey).

Okay, that's it for now.  I'm praying that God will guide me, give me patience and hope, as I make it through these cold winter months with Him by my side.   He's gotten me through these past few months, which have been so very hard, so I know He will continue to walk with me, and hopefully I will let Him lead.  At least part of the way... ;)